I'm back, and I am disappointed in myself.

I hurt my ankle last weekend at work.  I decided to take a day or two off from exercising to let it recuperate.  Guess what?  A day or two turned into a week.  I am disappointed that I let myself get so lazy.  It has been over a week since I worked out, and my eating has been out of control.  Then I had a wake up call.  Friday night Eric took the kids to his parents for the night so he could go hunting early in the morning, and so my MIL could babysit while I was at work.  A whole night to myself?!?  What to do with my unencumbered self?!?  I went to the mall.  I wanted to try on clothes in regular size stores.  Not a great idea when you haven't worked out in a week and have been stress eating like a crazy person.  I felt awful.  Gushy.  Flabby.  It really made me realize how far I had let things spiral out of control.  But now my eyes are open.  I know what I need to do, and I am recomitting, again, to getting healthy.  My new goal for my birthday is 195.  I weighed in at 203 today.  I have a rough 2 weeks to make that, but I want to be well under 200 for the New Year.  And then I will set some new goals. 

Something that Jillian Michales say a lot is "If you want big results, they don't come for free."  That is my new mantra.  I am reading Jackie Warners book, This Is Why Your Fat.  I am picking up some good info, and hopefully I will be able to find some useful tools to help me.  I did Jillian Michaels Burn Fat Boost Metabolism workout.  It was good!  Today, I am wearing a shirt that makes me feel skinny, so I am ready for the day!!!

Snow on the Ground

I really do hate snow.  Not good, since I live in Pittsburgh!  Whenever I see snow, or the gray murky sky, I want to snuggle up on the couch with a good book and a cup of hot chocolate.  That is how I felt today, so I decided some Jillian Michaels was in order, and Shred It with Weights made me feel great!  I weighed in at 199 today, pretty good, I think!  I had my coffee this morning, a banana, and now I am having my Slim Fast.  I have to say, the Wal-Mart generic is so much better than the brand name!  I only have 2 cans of the brand name Slim Fast, then back to the yummier one!  And the Wal-Mart brand only has 2 grams of fat, whereas the brand name has 6.  Yikes!  But, I have it, so I will drink it, but I am really glad that there are only 2 left!

So, I am realizing that I am most likely not going to hit my goal of 185 by my Birthday.  I am disappointed, but I am also glad that I haven't put any weight back on, and I am holding steady.  I just have to keep plugging away.  Better late than never!