Time to hear all the re-commiting babble again!

Okay, so this weekend my mom and I decided that we are going to go visit my sister in 2 months.  Woo Hoo!  I am very excited!  She lives in Virginia, and the weather is much better there in April than it is here.  So, I will need to pack shorts and carpi's. Here is the challenge: can I lose 20 pounds between now and then?!?  It breaks down to about 2.5 pounds per week, which is not overly ambitious.  I have put a couple pounds back on, weighed in at 200.2 today, so I would actually like to lose 25, but let's see how that goes!

I have let the potato chips and french fries get the best of me again.  I need to make a better plan for work.  I need to take food with me so that I have something to eat, and I don't graze on the fries and tortilla chips, and soup.  I hate to sound redundant, but I will do it!  I will try harder, and I will work out harder, and I will eat better!  Then, if I can get to that goal, I will have 10 to 15 pounds left to go when we go on vacation.  I really am cutting it close now, so there can be no more slipping up. 

On another note, Eric bought me a dress.  A pretty dress!  I was so surprised!  I never wear dresses any more.  I used to have great legs, and I wore skirts most days, and the shorter the better!  I loved to show off my legs.  Once, I actually caused a car accident.  A guy was checking out my legs so much that he rear ended the car in front of him!  There days, my legs are not so pretty.  I am very self conscious about them, especially since I have some bad varicose veins on my left leg.  I asked why he bought me a dress.  He said it was because I only buy myself clothes on the clearance rack, and I deserved to have something pretty to wear.  That is seriously one of the sweetest things anyone has ever said to me.  I love my husband, and I love the support he gives me!

So, what am I going to do differently this time to stick to the plan better?  I need to make what I eat more interesting.  I am getting better at that.  Something that Jackie Warner said in her book is counterproductive.  She said she makes a smoothie that is one protein, one veg and one fruit out of the way, and she takes her oatmeal and a veg during the day like a vitamin to get them out of the way.   That doesn't sound like she is enjoying her food.  I love food, and I love to eat, which is part of my problem!  I want to enjoy what I do get to eat, so I am trying some new things and combinations of food.  I do wish I was allowed more fruit during the day, I would much rather snack on fruit than veggies, but again, I need to be more interesting with my veggie choices. 

So, here is to a new beginning, and a better result!

Boy, I get side tracked easily.

It's a nasty downward spiral when I make a bad choice, I just keep making them.  It's like I can't stop myself!  I kinda hate that about myself.  But, I am doing well so far today, and I did Jillian Michaels Shred It with Weights.  I really do love that work out!  It is rough, and I feel so good after I do it.  Hopefully, my food choices will keep up with that.  Then again, the BBQ chips are gone, so that helps!  My weight was 198.2 today.

So, no one has read this in a month, and all of a sudden the other day I had 17 hits.  I was all geeked that people might actually be reading my blog!  All of the traffic came from Google, which was surprising.  After thinking about it for a day or 2, I realized the name of that particular entry had the phrase "fat ass" in it.  I think that that entry got so many hits because people were looking for fat ass porn.  Fail!

Getting back on track.

I am getting back on track, finally!  I ate really well yesterday, and did some good work outs!  Yes, plural!  I went grocery shopping last night, and got some good clean food to eat this week.  I weighed in at 198.8 today, which I think is a 2 pond loss.  Woo hoo!  I am trying to make sure my diet is varied and interesting.  I just had hummus, grilled chicken and spring mix on a whole grain pita.  It was very tasty!  Yesterday, I had 2 eggs scrambled with peppers, onions, and 1 ounce of pepper jack cheese on a whole grain pita.  Both were really good! 

I did Jackie Warner Total Body Circuit today!  Yikes, it was hard!  It really is amazing how quickly you can lose all the strength and endurance you have gained in such a short time.  Even if I am not following the diet, I have to keep working out consistently, and working out hard!  That is going to benefit me so much more than slacking off for a week or two.  Them I have to work back up to where I was.  I lose a lot of ground that way, and I have to stop sabotaging myself.  I love the way my body feels strong when I am working out, and I hate how lazy and sloppy I feel when I am not.  I am down to 4 months to vacation, and I want to lose another 30 pounds, I cannot keep slacking off if I want to meet that goal.  I am so looking forward to spring, when I can get outside and be more active.

By the way, no one has read thins in the last month, and today I have had 17 hits.  Wow!  Welcome to my blog, new readers!  Feel free to leave a comment!

I have hit obese proportions again.

Yikes, 200.6 pounds today!  I have gained back the 8 pounds that I lost.  I kinda suck.  I have known that I was eating horribly and not working out much, and I just couldn't get myself to stop.  I "took a week off" from my plan.  Then it became two.  The longer it went on, the worse I got.  Time to kick my own a$$ for being so dumb.  Oy.

Okay, having said that, I just finished working out, and I plan to go out and shovel snow this afternoon.  Not one or the other, both!  I am back to the diet plan.  I cleaned out the fridge today, so I have nice clean drawers and shelves to put nice clean food!  I just ate oatmeal and strawberries for breakfast, and used the Truvia and fat free creamer in my coffee.  So, I am back to my first goal again, which is 198.  A little over 2.5 pounds.  I can do it again!  I can be strong!  I will do better!