Proud of myself!

We have the most obnoxiously large basket of Easter candy.  It looks so yummy!  All manner of candy that you can think of.  And I have not eaten one bite of it!  It is hard, I really want candy, but, so far, I have been able to resist!  I weighed in at 197.8, so I am doing something right!

I got up at 6 a.m. to do the exercise bike.  I did 5 miles in 20 minutes.  I feel good!  It is nice to start the day with a good workout, I am awake, and I have energy!  My plan is to get up at 6 to start running, but I need to get shoes.  I actually did buy shoes yesterday, but I think I may return them for something different.  We will see.  I have MOPS today, and I know that I will be tempted to have something not diet friendly, but I am hoping for some nice fresh fruit.  Sweet and healthy! 

I think I over-did it today.

But, that's okay, right?!?  I walked/jogged to pick Perry up from school today.  I haven't done any sort of jogging in a long time, so my legs were already feeling it!  I did a work out, too.  I thought I had gotten Jackie Warner X-treme Crunch-less Abs.  Makes sense, right?  I jogged, so doing an ab intensive work out would not work my legs as much.  Well, the DVD I have is actually Jackies' X-treme Timesaver Training.  A full body routine.  My calves are still burning, and feeling a bit spasmy!  Oh, well.  Lesson learned!

I ate really well yesterday!  I was pretty proud of myself.  I weighed 199 today, so happy to be back under 200!  So far, my eating has been really good today, too.  I really wish I could have more than 2 servings of fruit a day.  I understand, fruit has a lot of natural sugar, and that means a lot of carbs.  I just really like fruit, and wish I could have more of it during the day.  I have to say, though, the Easter candy we have is really tempting me.  I haven't caved yet, but we have soooo much, it is going to be in my face for a long time.  Since I can have 2 treat meals on the weekends, I think I will let myself have a piece if I eat well at work.  If I don't eat well at work, no candy.  We will see!

Trying to get back into the groove.

I have slacked off for the last month and a half.  It started off with being sick, and spiraled down from there.  It is scary how easy it is to get out of the habit and backslide.  I am back to 203 pounds.  I am ashamed of myself.  People keep telling me how great I look, and I hate hearing it.  I feel awful, and I feel like I look awful.  I know I look better than I did a year ago, but I don't look as good as I did 2 months ago.  My friend tells me I should learn to take a compliment, but I don't deserve them.  Maybe if I get back into the swing of dieting and exercising, I will be more graceful about it, but not right now.  So, I gained back the 12 pounds that I lost this year.  Stupid.  Lazy. Time to get myself together, and get moving!  I have 9 weeks until vacation, and my goal was 175.  That is 28 pounds, instead of the 16 it would have been if I hadn't gained back the weight.  That is a little over 3 pounds a week.  Doable?  Impossible?  I guess we will find out!

I have been eating really well today, despite the giant basket over flowing with candy in my kitchen.  I did Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred.  I have been cleaning almost nonstop, and I still have the grocery shopping to do.  Good start to this!  I am going to try to be better.  I am really going to try to get this done!  I am going to try to start running at 6 a.m.  I want to try the Couch to 5K program.  I need to get a stopwatch for that, and I would like to get a new pair of running shoes.  I am optimistic!  I really want to do this!!!!