I need to lose 20 pounds in 3 months?!? Bring it on!

As usual, I have fallen off the wagon onto a soft pile of doughnuts!  But, I have continued to work out, so all is not lost.  I have been working out 3 to 5 times every week, so although my eating has sucked, my weight has maintained.  Weigh in this morning was 195.4.  Eric has been not so subtly reminding me that I have not been following my diet.  I know I shouldn't have Halloween Oreo's for a bed time snack, but after my work out today I felt like throwing up.  I had left over homemade Stromboli for lunch, and it did not sit well after my awesome work out, Jillian Michael's new DVD, Killer Buns and Thighs!  I really loved the work out!  I sweat up a storm, I felt the burn, and shook my way through it!  I will enjoy this one!  So, I may polish off the Oreo's tonight, (Come on!  They are Halloween Oreo's!!!) tomorrow I am back on the wagon!  I can still hit my goal by Eric's Birthday!  I realized after my work out how badly I have treated my body by going over board, so I did some nice things for myself, instead of beating myself up.  I used baby oil in the shower, and really, is there any better feeling than baby oiled skin?!?  I gave my self half of a pedicure, I will paint them this afternoon.  I am back, and I am ready to go!!!!

My 100th post!

For some reason, I am feeling a lot of pressure since this is my 100th post.  So, to say things that I would like to say, I am going to quote Jillian Michales.  This is what she says during the cool down of Shred It With Weights, Level 2, which I tried for the first time today, and loved it!  Very hard, but I will keep at it!

"Mentally, you want to take a minute and give yourself props for focusing on you for a little while out of this day.  We are so busy taking care of everyone else, all the time. Family, friends, kids, spouses.  And, women especially, never take the time to put themselves first.  And that is what working out is really about.  It's about taking that time, focusing on you, being the best you can be, making sure that you are strong, and you are confident, and you are healthy.  Because when YOU are good, everyone else will be good around you.  When you focus on you, and you make your health a priority, there will be more of you to give for more years to come...  All of this spiritual talk is great and everything, but at the end of the day, there is nothing like a pair of Skinny Jeans!"  And this is why I love Jillian Michaels so much!

I am doing this for my kids, the loves of my life, the reason I wake up in the morning, my whole world!  I lost my father when I was 16, and honestly, it is not something I will ever get over.  I don't want my kids to cry at any important event in their lives because I am not there to share it with them.  I want to be here for them as long a possible.  I want to be a role model for them, especially for Joce.  I don't ever want her to feel about herself the way I have at points in my life.  I want to show them that being healthy is good!  That working out is fun, and necessary!  That you have to put work into things that you want to be good.  I hope that my kids look up to me.  I hope that I am around for a long time, to be there for them.  So I will keep getting back up when I fall down.  I will never give up.  I will be the best mother, wife, friend, sister and daughter that I can be.  Everyday.

Speed Bumps.

We all hit them.  I feel like maybe I hit more than most on my diet journey!  I wasn't feeling well again yesterday.  Instead of working out and having a Slim Fast, I took a hot shower, ate chicken noodle soup and laid on the couch.  I was thinking that I was getting a stomach bug, so instead of pushing myself, I decided to get some rest and head it off at the pass.  It worked, because I am feeling much better today!  But, I feel really guilty!  It sounds so silly whee I say it that way, feeling guilty for resting when i don't feel good.  But, I also know that that is one way that I get lazy! I get out of the routine of working out, and eating well, and next thing you know I am up a couple of pounds!  To make it easier to get back into my work outs, I bought a new DVD!  Jillian Michaels 6 Week 6 Pack!  I plan to try it out today! And even though it is cold and rainy, I plan to get sweaty!

Feeling better.

But, I am afraid I may have picked up a stomach bug.  I am hoping my tummy is feeling bad from having lots of yummy picnic food, and not from a bug.  I guess time will tell on that one.  Yes, I went to a picnic yesterday, and yes I ate yummy food!  Holidays are free days in my book.  I will have to watch very carefully the next couple of days.  And get back to my work outs.  I only worked out twice last week since I was sick.  I weighed in at 195.4 today, so not too bad for how the last week went.  I am back on a normal diet routine again this week.  Hopefully my stomach will start feeling better, because I have no time to be sick again!  Here's to a good diet week!!!

Sick.

I hate being sick.  I really do.  I have too much to do in my life to rest.  And I have 2 kids, so rest really isn't an option.  I did not work out yesterday, and I ate more than usual, because I have been so light headed.  I was hoping that eating small portions through the day would help, but it didn't.  I am feeling better today, but not much.  I am still light headed, have a head ache and sore throat.  I don't think I will be able to work out today, but I plan to get back to my diet.  I weighed in at 194.2 today, still 2 pounds away from my goal.  Hopefully I will feel better next week, and be able to hit my goal.  Have a great holiday weekend!