Rough Day

I didn't get much sleep last night, and I worked all day yesterday.  I am exhausted and very, very cranky.  I have been eating badly again.  By some miracle, I weighed in at 203.5 today, my lowest weight yet.  I am sitting here having my Slim Fast, and once again recommitting myself to my program.  I did not work out today.  I just couldn't do it.  I showered, changed my sheets, and now am sitting here crying.  I hate that I cry when I am tired.  Eric has to work until at least 8 again tonight.  Joy.  I hate to say it, but I am very lonely.  Eric has been at work more than he has been at home the last 2 weeks, and I miss him.  I miss adult interaction.  I miss having someone to talk to.  I know that is why I have been eating crap.  I a the definition of an emotional eater.  I know that I am, and I really am trying to put a stop to it.  Maybe if I weren't so tired, I would have more will power, but sometimes I just get so run down that I just don't care, and I want something to make me feel better.  I have to go grocery shopping today.  I think I will buy myself something for my weight.  New make up, or undies, since mine are all too big.  Today is a great day for a treat.