Snow Sucks.

I really hate winter!  I hate snow, and cold, and the general icky-ness that the weather makes you feel.  I shoveled snow for about 40 minutes today.  I was sweaty and tired!  At least I can get some sort of outdoor work out.  I weighed in at 192.2 today!  So close to mt goal of 192!  And I have to say, this was a hard won goal.  I have been feeling hungry and deprived the last couple of days.  It has been really hard to stick to the diet plan, but I am proud to say that I have done it!  Not one cheat!

I have to wonder about my husbands weight loss.  He has lost almost as much as I have.  He eats a salad for lunch, whatever I make for dinner, including the starch I make mostly for the kids which I do not eat myself, and then he eats junk.  Chips, cracker, snack mix, etc.  And he does no exercise.  None.  How is he doing as well as I am?!?  It makes no sense.  Why do I have to work so hard, while it is so easy for him?!? 

I also want to say that I am really happy I tried the supplements that Jackie Warner recommends!  The Fish Oil has completely changed my skin!  It is clear, and balanced, and has honestly never looked to good!

Pushing through the exhaustion.

I cried during my work out today.  That's normal, right?!?  I don't sleep well.  I have trouble falling asleep, and trouble staying asleep.  It sucks.  Since I worked a little longer this weekend, I am more tired than usual.  I pushed myself hard during my work out, and I was able to do more of some of the things I can't usually do, but I cried.  I am so tired.

I am disappointed in my weight.  I was 195.4 this morning.  What?!?  I know that my weight usually drops quickly then goes up a little, then goes back down, and the cycle continues.  I just feel like I am getting more toned and more flabby at the same time.  I did really well eating clean yesterday.  I am getting the kinks worked out, and getting more ideas for meals.  I made a really good pasta sauce last night.  I couldn't eat much of the pasta, so I bulked up the sauce with chicken, low fat cottage cheese and spinach.  So good!  I am going to keep posotive, and keep pushing myself.  I will do this!!!

First week went well!

I made it through the first week!  And, idiot that I am, didn't weigh myself this morning!  I weighed 194.4 yesterday, so I will go with that!  I think I need to rearrange what I am eating and when.  I have been waiting until after my work out to eat, which means I don't have breakfast until around 11 a.m. and I am starving by then.  I usually have oatmeal with berries and 2 hard boiled eggs.  I think I need to eat the eggs earlier, and have the oatmeal as a snack, and then have lunch a little later.  I need to have more options than salad for lunch, or at least different things for the salad, because salad gets old quick!  I may try doing 2 ounces of tuna, I chopped hard boiled egg, and mix it with 1 tablespoon of light Ranch dressing to do kind of a tuna salad fake out.  That sounds like it would be good over baby spinach!  I also had a brilliant idea the other day.  I always complain that I can't make fish because I am the only one who eats it.  Well, Duh!!  I can have it for lunch instead of dinner!  Gorton's makes 4 oz. fillets that have yummy seasonings that are low lat that are tasty!  I am looking forward to what I may discover this week!

I did Jillian's 30 Day Shred today.  I am proud of myself for doing it, because I am exhausted and not feeling great.  I feel better for having done it.  Go me!

I am no longer obese!

I weighed in at 193.6 today!!  I am I am now in the overweight range, and safely out of the obese range!  I am so excited, I have not been at this weight in a very long time!  I love this diet plan, and I love working out, and I know I can do this! 

I bought a new winter coat yesterday.  I love it!  It is a dark gray wool fitted pea coat.  I feel pretty in it.  It is pretty!  I have been making a conscious effort to look nice.  I wear makeup everyday, and I have started straightening my hair everyday, and I try to wear nice clothes everyday.  I have been wearing a 7 year old mens size large painters jacket.  I looks terrible.  I feel fat and frumpy when I wear it.  Unfeminine.  I love my new coat, and I think my new purse will look great with it, too!  I talked to Eric about him yelling at me for buying the purse.  He said that he wanted me to buy new clothes so that I will feel better about how I look.  He doesn't like it when I complain about wearing clothes that are too big or are hand me downs.  His heart is in the right place, but he needs to work on his technique.

I did Jillian Michaels Shred it with Weights today.  I am pleasantly sore from yesterday, and am feeling todays work out already!  I am seeing more muscle tone everywhere.  One of my biggest goals is to be able to wear sleeveless shirts and be proud of how my arms look in it.  I have always had flabby upper arms, and have always been to self-conscious to go sleeveless.  I still have flab, but there are muscles there too.  One step at a time!!

Loved my work out!

I have had crazy busy days the last 2 days, and didn't get a work out in.  Today, I did Jackie Warner Total Body Circuit, and it felt so good to sweat!  I am still feeling shaky, and I like that too!  I weighed in at 195.4 today!!  That is my lowest weigh yet, and I am down 11.10 pounds since January 1st!  I am really enjoying this diet plan, and I had another good day yesterday!  It feels like the pounds are melting off, and I am so relieved that I found something that works for me!  I know what I need to do to hit my goals, I just have to stay focused and keep pushing through it. 

So, I am a bit upset about something.  I went shopping last night for new pajamas.  Eric keeps making fun of how big and shapeless my pajamas are, and he is right.  I really don't need to be wearing mens XL sleep pants and t shirts.  So I went to Target with ever intention of spending $50 on new pj's.  I felt awful in everything I tried on.  Flabby.  Frumpy.  Not good.  So, I found a really cute purse and wallet, and I bought those.  Eric was pissed!  Are you kidding me?!?  I never buy anything for myself.  Most of the clothes I have a old, too big, and hand me downs.  Purses always look good, and I feel good carrying them.  At least it is one thing on me that makes me feel like I look pretty and stylish.  And he yelled at me.  I felt even worse than I had before.  I am proud of myself for losing the weight, but I still don't feel like I look good in clothes.  Something I am still working on.

Officially started the diet plan!

Day One went really well!  I ate clean, even when faced with ordering in a restaurant!  Actually, I didn't eat enough yesterday.  I didn't get to work out either, but I did clean the basement for an hour and a half, so I was moving.  I weighed in at 196.4 today!  That is the lowest I have been so far!!  Woo hoo!  Again, I am so optimistic, and I really think that this is going to work for me!

We had a showing on our house, but it was a no.  Oh well, hopefully things will pick up soon!  We went to see a house in Bethel Park yesterday, but it was a no, too.  I am going to see another one soon.  Keeping my fingers crossed on all fronts!!!

Last 2 days....

So, i am officially starting the diet phase on Monday.  I Think I went a little sugar crazy the last couple days!  Eric had his surgery yesterday, and everything went well.  He is feeling better today, and I have to work, so he better be!  He asked me to make him No Bake Cookies for his recovery.  I did.  I also make oatmeal chocolate chip cookies, because it has been years since I have had an oatmeal cookie, which have always been my favorite.  I have eaten almost all of them!  Bad, Kristin, bad!!!  I allowed myself to do it, basically to get it out of my system.  I feel like I can go into the diet and feel good about it, feel more ready to do it, and not already feel deprived.  Good logic?  Not sure about that one, but we will see.

I weighed in at 200 today.  Not a surprises, considering all the cookies I have eaten.  I bought a diet journal, and I am so excited about it!  The cover is blue with purple lettering, and it says "What the world needs now is shoes, sweet, shoes."  It has an elastic place marker, and a pocket in the front.  It is the best notebook ever!  Jackie says to keep a food journal, and I figured I should get on that I love!  I am looking forward to using it, to help me see what exactly I am eating, how many servings I am getting, and what is or is not working for me.  I am really excited! 

I had to buy new pants for work because we are not allowed to wear jeans anymore.  I bought the same pants that I wore at Max and Erma's, but they are 2 sizes smaller!  Okay, I admit, they are a little snug, but that is so I remember to stick to my diet and exercise plan.  I also bought a few new t shirts, too, and again they are a little snug, but I hope that by the time the weather gets warmer, they will be perfect!!!!

Goal One: Reached!

I weighed in at 197.6 today!  I am now below the weight that I was when I graduated from PITT!!!!  I feel pretty good about it!  Time to go make up shopping!  Now, to decide on my second goal.  195 seems to easy, and 190 seems to long.  How about 192?!?  I think that sounds good, and then the next one will be 185, which was my goal for my Birthday.  Then I will go in 5 pound increments.  Now, I have a plan!

I did not work out yesterday.  My headache got worse.  I actually laid down while Jocelynn took her nap.  I felt terrible.  I felt a little around dinner time, and I took a hot bath to soak my aches from when I fell.  I felt a lot better by bed time.  I am planning an afternoon workout again today.  I am going to shower tonight, I have to take Eric in for surgery early in the morning.  Sadly, we are closing the Bowser Baby Factory for good.  I am conflicted about that.  We don't have the room or the money to have another baby, and I understand that.  I just never thought I would only have 2 kids.  I always thought I would have 5.  Haha, that was before I had one!!!  I really am okay with it, but now that it is here, it is kind of sad.  I am blessed with 2 healthy, happy children, and they are my world.  I am okay!

Snow day.

School was cancelled today.  We got a lot of snow.  I hate snow.  I don't think I will ever be able to say that enough times.  I did not work out this morning because I have a throbbing headache.  I am hoping it is gone by the time Jocelynn takes her afternoon nap so I can do it then.  Working out with a headache is the worst.  Either way, I will work out this afternoon.  I fell on the ice yesterday, and my back and neck are bothering me.  I went to the chiropractor yesterday, so it could be much worse, but that may be causing the headache.  I went straight down on my ass.  I was holding Jocelynn at the time, and she landed on top of me, luckily she wasn't hurt at all.

I weighed in at 198.4 today.  Almost hit my first goal!  I think I did fairly well with the diet yesterday, but my plan for dinner changed because my mom unexpectedly spent the night.  I don't know if what I made exactly followed the rules, but I think it was close! 

Holy hockey pucks!

I forgot how hard and intense Jillian Michaels No More Trouble Zones work out is!  I am still shaking and sweating after my shower, which was also hard after that work out!  I feel strong!  I am also noticing more muscle forming all over my body.  None in my belly, but I did have 2 babies, so that may take some time!  Honestly, I am feeling skinny today.  My pants look good, I am wearing a striped shirt that doesn't make me look like I have rings orbiting Planet Me. It's a good feeling!

I got a new scale yesterday, and I weighed in at 199.2.  I did really well planning my diet yesterday.  I am trying to be very careful today, I am planning burger and roasted potatoes for dinner.  Last night I portioned out a one pond bag of almonds into 1 ounce servings so I won't over eat when I want them as my fat for the day.  I think I am going to be able to do this diet, as long as I continue to plan ahead, and be sensible about what I am eating.  I am so optimistic!  I really think this can work for me!!!

I did it!

I tried oatmeal, and no reaction!!!  I am so excited by this, you have no idea!  I love oat meal, and I can eat it again!!!!  WOO HOO!!  I have also learned that I love fresh blueberries in my oatmeal!  Yumm-o!  Next up: trying pork.  I am afraid of this one.  The few times I have accidentally eaten it, I have had major migraines that I couldn't do anything about.  I will wait a little while for that one, mostly because I am scared!

I tried a new work out today, Piloxing with Vivica Jensen.  It was fun!  I know that I got a good cardio workout, and my legs were burning, and I got a good sweat on!  My trunk is already feeling a bit sore, and I think I will add this into my routine.  It made me realize how clumsy I am!  There are dance aspects to it, and I felt ungainly doing some of it, but graceful during some of it too.  Maybe after doing it for a little while, I will regain some dancer's grace, if that is possible for me!!

I weighed in at 201 today.  I ate cake yesterday.  And chicken salad with regular mayo.  I will try to stop doing things like that at work, but sometimes when I am really hungry, grabbing something like that is fast and satisfying when I don't have a lot of time.  Always a work in progress!  This is still technically a detox week, but I am going to try to stick to the diet plan as well as I can, kind of a dry run.  Work out the kinks a bit!  My jeans are fitting better than they did last week, and my arms have more muscle tone.  So do my quads, as a matter of fact!  I have to buy new pants for work this week.  Pants shopping is always an ordeal, but I am kind of anxious to see what size I will buy.  Stay tuned for that one!!!   

Glad it's Friday!

Whew!  I made it through the first five days of working out again!  I feel great!  I weighed in at 199.5 today!  I love that it is under 200, I really hate seeing that number on the scale!  Today, I did Jackie Warner Total Body Circuit.  Boy, it is rough, and it really makes me sweat!  Sweat is good! 

I finished reading the diet portion of Jackie's "This Is Why Your Fat," and it is a good thing I did!  I had the concept of the eating plan so backward!  I have a much better grip on it now, and am really looking forward to getting into it full scale.  I am in the 2 week pre diet portion, which is adding specific food and supplements to your diet.  It is going to take a little more planning than I am used to, but it will be okay.  Foe example, you are allowed to have 1 thing from the detox fats group, which is 2 tablespoons of olive oil, OR a quarter cup of nuts or seeds.  I love having almonds as a snack, but will not be able to do that if I need to use olive oi\l for dinner.  I think it is good to plan, though.  I am also allowed to have whole grain tortilla and pitas, so that makes for a nice lunch option, but if I eat oatmeal for breakfast, I can't have a third carbohydrate for dinner.  I have one more week of the pre-diet stuff, then into the clean eating phase, so I have a little more time to plan.  I know I have had a great week, I hope you did too!

The soreness is finally abating.

Yes, the I-just-started-working-out-again-and-can't-move-at-all soreness has gotten better.  I am still sore, but can move normally again!  Today I did The 30 Day Shred again.  I try to do the shorter work outs when Perry is home because he can't seem to leave me alone to work out!  Silly kid.  I weighed in at 201 even today.  I am starting to see some muscle definition again.  Not nearly as good as it was, but getting better!  I am already sleeping better, and feeling more energetic during the day.  I really wish I hadn't let myself get so complacent for so long.  I could be so much further along right now!  I hope that is will serve to remind me in the future to keep myself on track. 

I am only a couple of pounds away from my first goal.  I need to think of a reward for myself.  I got a gift card from Ulta for my birthday, so some new make up may be it!  I want to wait to buy new clothes until i get closer to my overall goal.  Have I said what that is?!?  I would like to weigh 170 by June, which is when we are going to the beach.  New summer clothes will be fun to buy!! 

I didn't get to try oatmeal yesterday, and I have hives on my leg again today, so I am hoping for tomorrow!  Maybe is I take a Benedryl tonight, it will clear up whatever I am reacting to.  Wish me luck!

I am awesome!

Jillian told me so!  I have said it before, and I will say it again, I love her pep talk at the end of Shred It With Weights.  To paraphrase her, getting healthy is a journey, and continuing to work out is part of it.  I was so sore from yesterday that I was really feeling like doing something easy.  I told a friend I would lend her the DVD tomorrow, so I made myself do it.  Yes, I was sore, and no, it was not easy to work through the soreness, but I did it!  I am proud of myself today!!  My weight was the same as yesterday, and that is okay.  It was a big drop the first day, so I am okay with staying the same. 

I am still getting used to the foods I am eating.  I wanted to try eating oatmeal today to see if I am still allergic to it, but, alas, I have traveling hives today.  Maybe I can try tomorrow.  I was excited, I hound a reduced sugar flavored oatmeal with only 5 grams of sugar.  We will see!!!

Wow, am I out of shape!

But, that is okay, I am going to fix that!  I did Jackie Warner's Total Body Circuit.  I haven't worked out in a month, and it is amazing how fast you can lose all the momentum, and achievement, that you worked so hard for.  I sweated like crazy, I really felt the burn, and I am feeling sore and shaky.  I love it!  I love feeling sore, it makes me know that I pushed myself, that I worked as hard as I could.

I weighed in at 201.5 today.  The diet is going well, and I am still figuring out how to eat. what to eat, and when, so that I am not hungry and cranky.  I will get it figured out, and I will make it work for me!!! 

I decided that I may buy a piece of goal clothing.  I think it may be a bathing suit, and I think I will hang it on my refrigerator.  That would give me a great visual for not cheating!!!  I also think Eric and I are going to buy a piece of exercise equipment.  I think the best idea is a combo bike and elliptical trainer.  Eric wants a bike, I want an elliptical trainer, seems like a win-win!  I am going to go look at it today.  I also think I am going to buy Jackie Warner's book, so I always have it to refer to.  My attitude is still positive, so I am going to roll with it!

Of course I made a New Year's Resolution to get healthy!

It is that time of year to make those resolutions!  I am trying to get back on track.  Since it is a new year, I have a big goal.  We are going on vacation in the end of June, so by the time we leave for vacation, I would like to weigh 170 pounds.  Today I weighed in at 206.5.  Yikes!  I gained 6 pounds over the holidays.  Not good.  But, I am optimistic.  Last year I lost 30 pounds.  I can do it again this year!  I am going to go about it in a different way, though.  Why, since I did lose thirty pounds, would I do something different.  The same reason I do everything: my kids.  Last year I did Slim Fast.  Perry wondered why I got to have chocolate shakes, and I made him eat good, healthy food.  Try explaining that to a 4 year old. 

I have been reading Jackie Warner's book, This Is Why Your Fat.  Her plan adds more food to your diet, but it is what you eat that is important. She doesn't allow sugar or processed flour, milk or dairy products during the wee, and you can have 2 cheat meals on the weekends.  She also has certain vitamin supplements to help detox your body and regulate your system.  She says you should eat 2 eggs a day.  I can do that!  I just scrambled 2 eggs with pepper and Buck's Seasoning, and boy, it was much better than Slim Fast!!  I plan to have salads for lunch, with lots of veggies and fruit, and snacking on veggies, fruits, and almonds.  Dinner will be lean proteins and veggies.  I want my kids to see me making good food choices, so they will learn to make good friend choices. 

And, of course, I will be getting back into my workout routine.  I did Jillian Michaels 30 Day Shred today.  It felt great!  I was disappointed by how out of shape I have let myself become.  I am taking responsibility for it.  I will be more diligent.  I will work as hard as I can, everyday.  Okay, most days, let's be honest.  I am ready to do this!

First goal, 198, again, one pound under what I weighed when I graduated for PITT!!!!